Sentimental post by a failed father:
I failed my oldest daughter in 1992 because of my antipathies against her mother (who, because of her leftist friends, brought her to a f***ing anti-racist demo in Bergen). Then, in 1993, when I went to prison - although that was not much of a choice: I had the choice between that and being tortured to death by some perverse criminal freak. Yeah, if not lost already, she surely lost her dad because of that.
Then her mother married a Commie, and they decided to deprive me of all contact (and influence over) my daughter because I was a "Nazi". So I never received any visits from her. After a long legal struggle, I won the right to see my daughter 3 times (some hours) a year.
But, by then, I was released from prison, and my daughter was already 16 or 17, and she had a life of her own, I did not know her at all, nor did she know me, so I failed her by thinking that I should not try to "force myself" into her life. Yeah, my still strong antipathy towards her mother also played a major role here.
Finally, I failed her because I had so much else to worry about, after spending almost 16 years in prison, and tried to manage outside, and I gave priority to my new family. My wife and (by then) sons. I moved from Norway to France, and I saw her twice since then. One time, my mother brought her along for a visit, and another time, I met her at my mother's place when I recorded "Umskiptar" (in late 2011 or early 2012, I don't remember).
That is the last time I had any contact with her.
How is she doing? I don't know. Sometimes I ask my brother about her, but all he can tell is that she lives in some town in Norway, along with her half-sister, and works there. She is 32 years old now.
Life is not always what we want it to be. It does not always turn out the way we want. Or the way we intended. And life surely is not always just.
"The gods send nuts to those who have no teeth."
I am doing fine, though. I have a new family, and I am not failing any of the other (7) kids, that I have with my wife.
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